A couple of years ago, a friend suggested that I write a letter to my younger self. It is a powerful exercise that I believe everyone should experience. So here I go.
1st December, 2016
Hello, Little One. It’s your older self, writing to you. Just so you know, you will create your own journey which makes you amazing.
There isn’t a fine line between making inadequate decisions and regretting them. Sure, you’ve made some inadequate decisions just to feel the thrill of being impish, but every decision you make gives you the opportunity to take credit for creating your own life. Also, by experiencing the disappointment that might come with a decision’s outcome, you can propel yourself to a new level of emotional evaluation and master the art of self-forgiveness.
I recall that you were slightly insecure about petty concerns while growing up. Remember feeling insecure about yourself because your mom didn’t let you wear makeup to school whilst your “cool” schoolmates attended school with cake faces? Newsflash, honey. You were, you are, and you always will be cooler than them. Your outer appearance, as beautiful as it is, never actually defined who you are. The people you meet along the way falls in love with you because you are a lovable person by nature. Also, here’s a little secret. Later on in your life, you will wear makeup. You will look in the mirror and see a cake face too, if you apply it poorly. But that’s okay, because there is a time and a place for everything.
On a totally unrelated note, Prince Harry is not single anymore. You have stepped up your celebrity crush game and you’re currently admiring the current Prime Minister of Canada.
You are chasing your dreams. Remember the profession you have set your heart on? You are on the verge of pursing it. There were minor interruptions along the way. Your brain cut to a different route but your heart brought you back on track. People say that giving into the musings of the brain is the smartest thing to do, but honestly, listening to your heart leads to the best decisions made in life, and your brain will eventually give in.
Speaking of heart, love doesn’t come in the form of a relationship status on Facebook. It doesn’t bloom the moment you give him your e-mail address to chat-up and send nudges on MSN. Borrowing your mom’s phone to “play games” but texting your “crush” instead, followed by an inbox clean-up isn’t exactly a sacrifice. Later on in your life, you have met people whom you have genuinely loved and whom you will continue to love with all your heart. You have made smart choices, and I can safely say that these are the people who are worth sharing your life with.
You have lost people along the way. But you don’t let the injustices of the past occupy so much psychic space in your present. There is a Greater Power who will be the judge and you, darling, deserve peace in your heart. Your friends are wonderful people, and meeting them for a chit-chat is more fruitful than texting gobbledygook back and forth. You don’t have to be in constant contact with a person to prove your friendship to him or her. Being there for a person when he or she needs you is worthy.
Your wish for a brother continues to grow, yet you love your sisters unconditionally. You see, life doesn’t always go your way. You wanted to be a full-time babysitter for your sisters, but they have been living miles away from you. You do get to meet them occasionally, but you haven’t got the chance to unleash the big-sister vibe on them, YET. I have a feeling that they’re going to continue to travel throughout of the country and out of the country for a while, but all that matters are love and memories so make sure you give it and make sure you make them.
I have watched you evolve into a fiercely amazing woman. Today, you are one year older, so happy birthday. I am so proud of you. You are a hopeless romantic, but you’re not letting love distract you from conquering the world. You aim to thrive when it comes to your education, but you haven’t spent sleepless nights, buried in books. You are ambitious, but you have achieved the right balance between the significant aspects of your life. You love your family, but you do not tolerate having toxic family members around you just because they’re “family.” You are a self-proclaimed feminist, but you most certainly do not want death to all penises. You are considerate, but you don’t other people rent space in your head for free as that’s valuable real estate.
Darling, maturity is not measured by age. It is an attitude built by sensitivity, manners and how you react to situations. Don’t wait for the universe to bend in your favor. Go out there and slay, Queen! You are responsible for your own happiness. You are a warrior. Not a worrier.
I love you.
P.S You’re still a cry-baby.